Betrayal of Need
By
Alliecallienip
He
was angry. She could see it in the lines of his face. His jaw was tensed. His
green eyes were clouded
over with anger. His ears lay flat against his head. He moved stiffly, avoiding
her. She knew that she had to
find him and set things straight again - tell him that she really loved him,
and no other.
The Jellicle Ball had ended. Old Deuteronomy chose
Gus to go to the Heaviside Layer.
She smiled as she
remembered the look of rapture on the old cat's face when he had gazed up into
that heavenly light. That
perfect moment was spoiled only by the thought of him, and his anger.
She watched as all of her queen-friends left with their toms, keeping up a
cheerful front all the while. No
one could tell that she was upset - no one but him. She wanted to cry out for
them not to leave her, not
alone with him! But she held her tongue. It was her problem - hers and his. Not
theirs.
Once the last couple had gone, she turned to face him, frightened but
determined. He stood with his back
towards her, clenching and unclenching his fist slowly. She tentatively reached
out to set a paw on his
shoulder. "I'm sorry," she murmured hesitantly.
With a sudden snarl he whirled. She leaped back, frightened of the horrible
anger she saw in his eye. "I am
your mate! I!" he shouted, his voice echoing thruout
the dim morning light. "And yet you - you - " He
halted his words, too furious to continue. She began weeping softly, her tars
wetting the soft fur covering
her face. Ignoring her distress, he began to pace in a tight circle. "You
betrayed me. I want to know why."
Between sobs she managed to choke out, "I - I don't know. Please, believe
me…you're the only one I love!"
He snarled, "I wish I could believe you." With a low growl, he turned
and slapped her. She let out a sharp
cry, reaching up to lightly touch her cheek. A few drops of blood appeared,
staining her fur crimson.
"That'll teach you not to fool around with other toms."
She cowered, her sobs growing heavier with every breath. He turned his back on
her, stalking away. They
would sleep alone, tonight.
She called out in fear, "Please! Don't leave me - "
For along with a fear of him, was need. It wasn't want as
much as need - wasn't love as much as fear - he owned her. She couldn't survive
without him - he was her
master. She need him. And she hated him for it. But
she couldn't leave, and he knew it.
He hesitated, only for a moment. The first real sunrays of the day began
shining into the Junkyard as he
turned, saying icily, "Go back to him, Jenny. Go
back to your precious Bustopher Jones."
"Skimbleshanks," she whispered, letting her
eyes close as the realization set in that he was setting her free.
But he was gone.